Vibes

Merry meet all,

I have a brand new iMac!! I love the white monitor, the keyboard and the mouse. I love it all. Now writing is so much easier. I am enjoying getting acquainted with it. I also now have a diabolically awesome cute pair of dark lord slippers from Kijiji. My toes will be hellishly warm!! Indeed, I am wearing them as I type and my feet are quite warm. I worked today at Value Village. I thought that shift would never end. It sure keeps me on my toes. 

Imbolc is upon us. I haven’t celebrated Imbolc yet. I have been so busy. I do intend to but now that I work part time, everything has changed. But I do like Imbolc. I guess I now have no excuse not to write. I have a new computer. Imbolc is about cleansing and purifying. I desperately need to do housework here. I just need the time- and to do an Imbolc Ritual. Or maybe I can turn the mega cleaning here into a ritual. We shall soon see. 

I want to post today about something I see is important. I hate Covid. I think we are all sick of it. It has turned our lives upside down. It has opened my eyes to what I would never have seen or imagined. I had to say goodbye to some long term friendships/ relationships that meant a lot to me. It hurts. But I had to do it for my own emotional, mental and physical health. I do believe in not totally closing a door on someone. But lately the opposite is exactly what had to do. It really sucked. But when I see how they treated me, I really had no choice. Sherry who I knew a long time, turned on me and was so embarrassing, controlling and insulting to me. I don’t deserve to be treated like I can’t afford Penny’s diabetes, or can’t afford the vet food or care. It turned out that once I did ditch her – I think. I know more than you, am richer than you, have power over you- ass, everything I needed fell into place. Yeah it was a year of eye opening events- some good, mostly bad, and saying goodbye to those where I never thought it would happen. But here I am. 

I can say this: trust your vibes. If someone or something ever feels ‘off’ to you or not right, pay attention. That is your body, brain and intuition trying to tell you something about a person or place or thing. Don’t ignore it and then be regretting it for the rest of your life. Don’t let anything- whether you have to make a major decision such as buying a car, applying for a mortgage or deciding which college to apply for, like wait till it feels right to you. You will know when it is right. You may even receive some auspicious signs from the Universe. 

Vibes are energy. Energy is transformed. Energy is not static, it changes into something else. Even your gemstones and crystals move and grow. You cannot see it happen but it does. It is happening. How do you feel when you first sip coffee in the morning, go to bed and slip under the cool covers or feel water cascade over you in the shower? I know, you feel amazing right? But then you go to work, or you were late, your hot coffee spilled on you, or your boss yelled at you. Then you work all day, you come home to dishes in the sink, your landlord wants his rent, and your significant other might be miffed for whatever reason. We can’t control what happens to us but we can control our reactions to it. This is a hurdle I have to over come. I sometimes totally get angry and lose my shit. I then regret it. Penny often puts me in my place, as per protocol. 

In any case, just wash the dishes, sweep that floor and feed your pet. A clean environment does wonders for reducing anxiety and stress. But yeah we can control our reactions. Life is not always fair, it was never intended to be. But it is more bearable when we control our reactions to it. Life does go on and what seemed so major now you will soon forget about. Like I really hate waking at 6 am to get ready for work. But I know I will be paid. That eases the pain of waking up at that ungodly hour. I get a benefit from going to work every day. That and the other employees are so nice. 

When the editor expressed interest in publishing my novel- and it was a traditional publishing house, I screamed so hard I scared Penny. She was rewarded and festooned with many kisses and loves. But I was so amazed that anyone would want my story. I am over the moon. I felt an amazing vibe from the editor. That is partly how I knew it felt right. They are trustworthy and just ask for my patience. 

Vibes will tell you what words cannot. Always trust how you feel. You will know as you experience more in life. 

Stay safe

Blessings, Spiderwitch